Recent mind storms...

I have Been attempting to go on a "spiritual journey" in the begging of this attempt I have talked to a couple of people going through this same process. It definitly isn't going to happen over night but I am working on it. The quotes I have in my phone, in my blog, and via the internet are things I find helpful on this journey. I've done some research and came up on some information regarding something called a mind storm. Hence the title of this blog "Recent mind storms". In my own words a mind storm forms slowly.... You may not even know that it is coming, and when it has arrived you may not even know that you are in one. You start off in a mind state, and you may start hearing "voices", not someone elses voice but a voice within you. Your conscience. It can be small, but it doeS speak to you. I recently told my best friend I feel like I battle with myself sometimes in my head like I'm arguing with myself. Well hell I was. Arguing with my conscience. It says one thing and I really want the thoughts to stop because in a way your conscience can be an instigator. Starting things, imagining things and if you let it get ahold of you and take over your state of mind will turn into a mind storm, and from there you have to just let it pass. From the information I collected it said the best way to get thru a mind storm is to just let it ride out because once you are in a mind storm it is hard to get out of it. Which is true. Thoughts start taking over the logical thoughts even sometimes making up more and more things, possibly making you very upset or angry. Now there is a way to avoid mind storms, Sometimes. When you start hearing these voices talking to you try to notice them but DO NOT feed into it. Which means, let the thoughts be thought, but do not think anymore into them. Ignore them, but also pay attention so you know, when "the voice" is trying to take over. I recently had a mind storm, and actually I am acing on eight now... Its not as bad as some I have been n before but I'm trying to gain full control of my thoughts. I am n a situation I do NOT like, but I have no choice but to deal with it because it pays by bills. Aka a job. Lol. I do not like it.... And I am getting more and more annoyed as the time goes by. All the while my instigating conscience isn't helping. Its literally talking Shit.... About the things that are bothering me. Now by trying to get control of my thoughts I am telling myself, "this is the situation, you are here, you dnt want to be her but you a here, only 3 hours left you CAN get through it, its not ThAT bad" then my conscience is saying. "omg, I want to go, I can't stand being here, FUCK, omg will she just be quiet already, why is she so annoying, why is she so difficult" and even though these things are all true, its my job, I wanna leave but I can't if I want my money lol you know? But it sucks hearing these thoughts when your trying to be positive and stay in a good mood. So.... With that being said... That was my recent mind storm and I'm ending this blog.
PEaCE,
Lo
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